Its taken a while and has been painful but I now like myself - something I never thought I'd say 6 months ago. Yes I am overweight but now I feel ready to lose it.

I've come off my anti depressants and feel fantastic (and I no longer wake up every hour) - I feel in control and am learning more and more how to not be controlled by other people (if that makes sense).

Have even been for a 30 min stroll today - my first exercise in months and it was lovely - blew away all my cobwebs.

Juliet

I wish I could feel the way you are feeling. I am almost at the opposite end of where you are right now. I have recently gained a lot of weight and feel no motivation whatsoever to do anything.

What turned things around for you  - maybe I can do the same and feel how you are feeling.

Oh I've gained loads of weight (4 stone since June) but whilst it was piling on I didn't seem to care at all which was so unlike me.

I'm trying hard to think what turned it round for me - my counsellor (who I know I am so lucky to have thro work) has had me doing affirmations every morning telling myself that I love and approve of myself the way I am (I literally say "I Juliet Harris love and accept myself for who I am") - even tho I didn't beleive it at first, by telling myself that I did made my subconscious believe it (I've not explained it very well).

I have also been reading a book called "You can heal your life" - this is about how what you think makes things happen - its a fab book and I read it everynight.

I've not explained it very well - sorry. I suppose suddenly the dark cloud which has been over me for months has suddenly been blown away.

Juliet

What I forgot to say is that my counsellor has always said if I loved myself then my issues with food etc would get resolved. Thats why she had me doing affirmations - but its true, I couldn't move on till I loved me as that was standing in the way.

Ah, that makes a lot of sense. I DO seem to care about putting on weight (I hate it a great deal) but I can't see that there is any point in going through the battle which is weight loss as I hate myself so much and the end result will still be that I am alone and childless.

I don't love myself unfortunately (never have and probably never will) I have tried affirmations but am never convinced by them but thank you very much anyway for replying, it's good to see someone happy.