Heyy.

Im sorry if i have wrote on the wrong board, im not quite sure were to put this.

I dont no if there is something wrong or it's me just been very silly. Im 17 years old, turn 18 in a months time, I am 5ft 2 and weight nearly 9 stone...I have read on the internet and books/weight loss DVD's that this is a normal weight, I just still see myself as fat.

I dont like the way my body looks, my hips, my legs. I hate my looks! i think im ugly. Yes i have a bf who we have been together nearly 9 months. and he tells me on a regualar basis im beautiful and he wouldnt change me for anything. My elder sister also says similar things. I dont no why i feel this way.

My mother died when i was 8 years old threw heart attack, she was obesse, terribly over weight. I dont want to end up like her. Even tho i loved her dearly, i can see myself ending like that, the way i see myself now.

I have tried not eating but people have ago at me and say i should, which for a bit i start pushing myself away from them, but i dont want to lose my family so i eat for there sake. I wish there was some way i could make myself feel better/thinner but also have my family and bf there to love me for who i want to be.

Thankyouh for taking the time to read this. Again im sorry if i posted in the wrong area, but would love some reply.

Anni

hi there

i think you are suffering from low self esteem, and your behaviour suggests heading toward an eating disorder. you could try posting on Overcoming Eating Disorders board?

i expect loosing your mum was incredably hard, but eating a normal healthy diet will mean that you are fit and healthy and less at risk from heart disease etc. something such as a heart attack due to obesity has many factors and results from an inactive unhealthy lifestyle for many many years.

for your height you are a good weight and if you feel 'wobbly' as it were then try some toning moves with light weights or just your bodyweight. there are plenty about on the fitness boards, websites etc and taking some exercise thta leaves you a bit vreathless 3 times a week.

stopping eating (for a long period of time) will damage your body and can actually lead to heart failure! so can be as bad for you as eating over excessively.

ss x

hi there and welcome to the board,
I definetely think you are suffering from low esteem too, you are an ideal weight for your height but it sounds like you could be on the verge of having an eating disorder, most people have 'fat' days now and again but if you are constantly feeling you're fat when in actual fact you are not then that is worrying and it's best to nip it in the bud before it goes too far. Stopping eting is definetely not the answer, it really will only cause you problems and make you more unhappy in the long run. you don't need to lose weight, what you need to change is your thinking!
Like the previous post said you can always to exercises with weight to tone up a bit but also try and challenge your negative thinking because you are your own worst critic.

Please try not to be so hard on yourself and when you feel fat and ugly, remind yourself of the facts, you are a healthy weight and if others tell you that you are beautiful then listen to them because they will be telling you the truth.
Take care and feel free to post any time you want to, you ar enot on the wrong board although there are also other boards that might be of help aswell like the 'love your body' board
http://messageboards.ivillage.co.uk/iv-ukdfbodyim