Hi

I was trying not to post as there are so many people suffering...but now i dont know where to go...

I m crying all the time...

ANd I have started cutting and i cant stop.....I just want to hurt...

I keep telling myself this will passs buti ts getting harder and harder to stay safe...

cant face calling anyone...

I cant do this anymore....want to post to people but its all too much....

I miss my grandad too....

I am supposed to be happy ..sorting out my wedding but i dont think i am going to make it....i just want to die.

i could do with a hug...

so tired of fighting...its been so many years,,, its got to end...

Jayne

Jayne, just take a look at the faces of those two darlings on your post. They trust you and they care about you. If you find you are still cutting or thinking about harming yourself in any way contact your support team. That is what they are there for.

hugs and muffins

Hi You

Post here as much as you like - it's a sounding board and gets things off your chest BUT speak to your professional helpers - they can help much much more and that's what they are they for...  if you dont' tell them, they can't help hun..  they're not mind readers. 

If you haven't already done so, ring them today...  get to speak to them..  promise? 

xx

hi

I went to the doctors surgery and saw the practice nurse...(not for my mental health)...and I just broke down...

She went and spoke  to my gp....then the nurse came back and phoned the CMHT to try and get hold of my CPN...who just so happens to be off today....

I left the doctors surgery ....punched a wall...(ouch)....

I did get a phone call about half an hour later from the Duty social worker/CPN....and they visited me this afternoon...they were really nice....we just talked about anything for a while..it helped....but I do realise i am crashing...

I am seeing my normal CPN on friday |I just need to hang out until then. or call the community mental health team (CMHT)....if i need to see someone sooner...

I am so scared I am going to flip ....I can feel it coming.....it was so hard talking to these people i didnt know....

I am angry i cut so badly....

I just want to cry but i cant.....

I am trying to keep occupied....but it is getting harder  not to go out....

How could it get this bad again....

I do feel guilty posting here....alot of people are suffering....

I cant keep on like this...I will break...

Jayne

DId you tell teh DUty SOcial Worker about the fact that you think you're crashing? 

Don't feel guilty about posting here - a lot of people are suffering everywhere - doesn't make your suffering any more or less important hon.. 

If needs be call the CMHT..  that's what they're there for.  I know you find it hard to talk to them but it's the right thing to do - they can help. 

Don't break Jayne..ask someone (CMHT) who has glue to hold you together. 

x