Hi Dee,
There are times when women feel like this about someone and because of those charged up, 'in-love' feelings they push everything else out of the way and see long term partners as boring or feel like they have no feelings for them. When they indulge themselves by following their desires they can often get a bit of a reality check where they see how unworkable it actually is to be with the one they lusted after.

It's wonderful to have old feelings rekindled and realising you are still capable of feeling those warm, loving and lusty emotions. It shows you're still vibrant and alive.

If your OM wasn't interested you could find yourself feeling your old man is better than nothing or that the love you thought was gone hasn't gone it's just changed. There are different kinds of love and love changes within a relationship.

The passion at the start gives way to a familiarity that is so familiar it can be hardly noticed as time goes by.

Sometimes it takes a shake up to reveal what is really there.

Nobody can tell you what to do, which way to go because this is your life and your choices are your gifts to yourself but you have to be aware of the possible consequences where the results may not be good. You could find that you are left completely on your own. Maybe that's what is meant to be. I know from my own experience that being on your own is not a scary thing to be but if you've had a lifetime with someone the change can take some adjusting to.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that whatever you decide to do make sure you've thought about it fully from as many angles as possible and prepare yourself for the worst while hoping for the best.

If you want to continue to wean yourself off thoughts of OM then keep doing what you had been doing. A setback is not a failure. They can be learning experiences and they can also be a release every now and again where you get rid of a lot of bottled up emotions in order to carry on from that point because even though it feels like you've gone backwards actually the point at which you went backwards was progress and regaining ground again is from the position you had managed to reach.

Hugs
Owly x

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