Hi hon,

How are things? Have you managed to get an appointment with your gp?

Hope you're doing ok honey.

xx

Hiya,

No I havent had an appointment, can only make them at either 8.30 or 2pm, and when at work its not easy to get to the phone at those times. But to be honest this week, things are getting worse and I dont see the point. Nothing is going to help, am always going to be this unhappy am too old to make the changes now, my life is ruined, so should just accept that and stop fighting.

Just want to go away and never come back and lets face it....it will probably be for the best. I am an outsider with my family, my friends are better off without me, so might as well just disapear. Not going to do anything stupid....am too weak for that, but just want to not be here, not feel like this anymore, not to be so alone.

x

Honey!

I;m sending really tight but gentle hugs to you. Sweetie, please don't give up. You've felt like this before and you've managed to pull yourself out and get through it before. You'll manage again. But i do think yiu need some support. Please do prioritise making an appointment with your gp.

Hon, you really not that old. I'm sure you're about the same age as me, so if it's too late for you then it also is for me. People change their lives around all the time. There isn't a set age for it. If it makes you feel better i too am in a major time of change at the moment. Pretty sure i'm giving up my PhD after 2 years working on it having not secured funding, and thinking about leaving my job to do some voluntary work abroad for a bit. I'm not with the person i want to spend my life with honey, and i too would love to have children. There is certainly still plenty of time. Don't give up on yourself.

How come you are feeling like an outsider? What's happened to make you feel like this?

Honey, i know that you mean a huge amount to your friends. I wonder. I met a man randomly last week who said to me "you don't have any idea about all your qualities, do you?" I think you might be the same.

Please make the appointment sweetie.

xx

PS. sorry if there are spelling mistakes galore -i'm in bed with some evil virus today and my head hurts so much!

((((((((A)))))). The gentlest of hugs for you. Please don't give up, you can beat this. Please make an appointment to see your GP ASAP.

We all care about you, you are a very special lady. Like Sparkley said, we have all been so low down but it doesn't last, so don't give up.

Jillxx