I wish I could work out how to say how much I miss you. It really hurts.
I love you so much.
I never imagined my life without you in it.

I hope you find the state of me funny tonight. It would mean I'm good for something at least. I know you always did find me the amusing emotional one.

I know you kept me at arms length at the end, for the only time in our friendship.
I wish you hadn't, I got to you too late and I never got to say how much better you had made my life. I wish I could remember more, I wish I could remember all our conversations as much as well as I remember the one when you told me you had it.

We always said that failure isn't the falling down but the staying down, it was so much easier to feel like I wasn't a failure with you around.
I love you, god I miss you so...