My next door neighbour has had her baby, at least I'm pretty sure she has. No one has actually told us, maybe they think we'll be upset. Maybe that's also the reason she has avoided me since Florence was born nearly 15 weeks ago.

Last week I put a note through their door to let them know we were going away for a few days and to also wish them all the best for the birth.

I am happy for them. I wouldn't wish them any ill, but I'm just so upset.

I feel sick at the thought of being able to hear newborn baby cries through the walls, and just devastated that I get to go and visit my dead baby's grave while they get to bring home their live baby.

I know people can't stop having babies just because my baby died,but it does seem particularly cruel that my next door neighbour has to have a baby girl so soon after my baby girl died.

Love Jeanette

Mummy to India, Eden, Angus, Sid and Florence

Jeanette Hun I dont really have any words of wisdom - I dont suppose there are any really but I am sending you some great big ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))).

I think most of us know exactly how you are feeling, it hurts as it reminds us of what we have lost, even though we are happy for them. It has been nearly 8m since we lost Minnie and it still hurts - although not the gut wrenching physical hurt of the early days, the pain is still there...

Take care Hun

Hi Jeanette

I remember something similar happening to me, it hurts! When I was pregnant my colleague was due 2 weeks after me and when she had her baby no one told me incase I got upset but I was more upset thinking something bad had happened to her baby too. Of course he was a boy which felt doubly awful and I couldn't hold it together when she came to work with him once and went and cried in the loos. She was actually the person who was the nicest to me after my loss and always asked after me etc so I couldn't feel bad for too long but it still hurts to see her DS now as I know that is how old mine should be.

Hugs to you, I hope it isn't too painful when you do bump in to her with her baby.

Amy
xxx

Thanks guys, I'm struggling with this a lot more than I thought I might, and most people I've spoken to seem more concerned for my neighbour. Everyone keeps telling me how awful it will be for her, and yeah I know it wont be easy, but just how is it worse for her?

Someone today said it was hell for us both...urmm, yeah, hellish awkward for her,but pure bloody hell for me, and I'm damn sure I know whose hell I'd rather be dealing with.

Sorry, I know I sound like a right old bitch.

I don't begrudge my neighbours their baby, I just wish we didn't live next door to each other right now, and I'm guessing they probably feel the same way too.

Love Jeanette

Mummy to India, Eden, Angus, Sid and Florence