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Hi Lise,
Phew! I thought it was just me, but these past few days I have really, really started to want another baby. I have always wanted 4, but after the pregancy from hell with Rebecca we both decided that 2 was enough. I can't make sense of where these feelings have come from as Rebecca is very hardwork.
Like you, you'd have thought that nearly 7 tears of ttc, 5 m/cs, 20 months of unexplained infertility plus Rebecca's pregnancy which was anything but easy - 13 weeks of progesterone, 36 weeks (which turned into 2 days post delivery) of injections, PE / a month of being in hospital and an emergency c-section to round it all off nicely would have put me off, but apparently not.
However, for me, I do think that it's the hope of next time being more straight forward, getting the pregnancy / labour I had so hoped for (I wanted a home birth) when in my heart I know there are no guarantees, I'd probably have PE again and my placenta has done badly in both of my sucessful pregnancies so I may not be so lucky next time, so it would be pure madness to go there again.
I don't know, I'm blaming hormones!
Love,
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