Hello Angel

It's been 5 whole years now & bit by bit memories are fading to just the important parts. Remebering that evn though you didn't cry having you was in the end pretty easy & for a short while I did feel some joy in what we had created. You were so small & so precious. It was so hard to leave you when we had to go home. The hospital felt safe & you were with us.

Five years is a long time. There are your brother & sister now. Both so lovely & both so different. Amelia knows about you now & asks if we can have cake tomorrow. This year we will not be doing much. I am ill so we will postpone our trip for a short while. We will light your candle though.

Well what else can I say? What would you have been like at 5? I think you'd be a bit like Seb who is open, funny & cuddly. You'd also be like Amelia talkative, bright & pretty. You'd have been a mixture of both. All my beautiful children.

So here is another year gone. As always we love you & miss you with all our hearts.

Happy Birthday Bean. Angel kisses for you xxx

Mummy, Dady, Amelia & Sebbie xx