I hardly know where to begin my darling. It's supposed to get better with time but as I sit here a year to the day since I lost you it doesn't feel any less painful.  Like every baby on this board, you were wanted so much and would have had so so so much love.  Those around me have forgotten and I wonder why as i walk round with a huge piece of me missing I wonder why they can't see it. I imagine you in my arms now, how our life would be, sometimes I can sense you so close to me. I just want to say that I love you so much, I think about you every day and I hope that one day I will understand why.  Until then rest with the angels.

I love you with all my heart  Mummy xxxxx