hi every1 im new to this board i was on babys born march 2010...

my name is zoe im 28,with 3 children,dd12,ds9,dd6

on wed 9th sept i had my 12 week scan..but there was no baby there,they reckon it had died around 6 weeks,meaning ive been thinking i was pregnant all that time....midwifes were a nightmare to me,couldnt or wouldnt answer any of my questions..and just said dont worry you can always have another 1 grrrr

i feel so empty n confused..n wishing and hoping they have got it wrong...wishfull thnking..well they have sent me home to see if it happens naturally and got to wait 2 weeks ....i just want it over and done with so i can move on...ive heard so many storys about what happens naturally and wiv a d n c,and im sooo scared i know every1 is different and loose it different ways.i jst cant believe this is happening,ive been through enough in my life..the babys dad was a nightmare and isnt given me any support through this i feel so alone as i would like him here but he says hes got his son to think of and cant let him think hes neglecting him :( ...i do have strong feelings for him,i know im best away from him but im alone and want him to step up a bit..even tho not been with him 4 that long but i feel im stuck to him because he helped me get over from my fiance that committed suicide last oct :(....

i wish i could have some luck ive been through so much and my children..thanx 4 reading my rant..jst so scared and want to know wats ahead of me:(

zoe x

Zoe,

I'm sorry to hear about your situation.  You have been through alot.  So sorry.  I just went through this myself and well I'm still not over it all.  My outcome didnt come out the way I wanted it, but I wish you the best of luck and I hope it comes out well for you.