hi ladies

my head is in bits at mo!!!my sister (24yrs old) found out on friday that she is pregs! she is off to docs today to talk about a termination AND ITS BREAKING MY HEART!!!

im sooooo angry cos me and DH are sat here after having 4m/c's and having to take meds to evan get pregs and my sis gets pregs and terminates!! im not angry at my sister as its her life and her body, only she can decide whats right for her BUT FOR GOD SAKE, IT JUST FEELS LIKE ANOTHER KICK IN THE TEETH FOR ME & DH...... just had a text off DH "i hope we are one of the lucky ones in the next couple of months"

my heart is breaking in two because i sooooo want what my sister has right now and she is going to just throw it away BUT ON THE OTHER HAND she is my little sister and i love her to bits and will ALWAYS be there for her NO MATTER WHAT!!!

i just want to cry but i know that if i do that, i wont stop!!!

just had to write it down!!!

hi

what a horrible thing for you to be faced with, seems so cruel.

Last Wednesday i had an operation and was put in a room with 3 other women having terminations! its hard to deal with the rawness of the emotion especially when it feels like the bottom is falling out of your world.

does your sister know what you are going through? does she know that you know?
sending you a big hug

x

hi hun

my sister knows about all my m/c's and how hard i have found lossing my angels! and she came to me first when she realised she was late, it was me that convinced her to tell my mom and dad!

i find myself getting really angry today though.... just keep thinking "when will it be our turn for some baby news and will will the hurting stop"!!!! sometimes i just feel like throwing the TTC towel in!!! cant handle much more....

hugs

Hi Kazz honey,

So sorry to hear about your situation with your sis. Life really throws doo doo at us sometimes doesn't it! As if you weren't going through enough already. I really felt for you when reading your email, but I really admired you too... although you're obviously pissed off, you're really sensitive to your sister's situation and I have to say if I was in the same situation, I'd find that really difficult. Well done for holding it together honey. Hold onto that TTC towel...

hugs

sweetgingercat and Joseph

oh sweetie i am so sorry it must be such a hard situation to be in. on one hand you are devestated as she has what you desperately want and deserve after the heartbreak you have been through but then on the other shes your sisster and you want to support her.

i do hope your sister changes her mind and doesnt go through with it.

what a lovely text you got frm dh too i am sure you will be one of the lucky ones soon too! have you started ttc again yet hunni. havent spoken in agesss!!!! lol.

About me: I'm Leigh 23 i have a DF Jason 27 and 2 beautiful girls Hollie who is 3 and Charlotte whos nearly 2. I'm an angel mummy to 3 special babies Sam lost at 8 weeks May 08 ( natural m/c), Taylor at 9 weeks July 08 (mmc with erpc) and Jessica at 19 weeks April 09 (mmc with inducment). Now ttc our 6th baby and hoping for a sticky one!!! x